WAH. Crazy mix of emotions going on here.

It is starting to hit me, that in one months time I finish my job here..... and my brain just can't decide how I feel about it. So, I'm just going to write the thoughts that come into my head - apologies for the random order, but my brain isn't thinking organised thoughts at the minute.

I generally just feel like this at the minute.......
















So here are a list of the things in my head at the minute.....


Part 1 -
1) 'ARGH I'm going to miss Switzerland so much'

2) 'OMG I'm so excited to go to Korea'

ARGH I'm going to miss Switzerland so much

OMG I'm so excited to go to Korea

I just need to remember that I felt the exact same way about Newcastle/Switzerland and now I feel more at home in Switzerland than in Newcastle.

 I had been doing some reading on how you deal with moving away/culture shock and it was crazy how much it related to the up and down emotions I have had whilst living in Switzerland........ and then someone posted an article in the EPIK facebook group which sums it all up perfectly...... See here
Luckily it didn't take me too long to reach the Acceptance, Integration, and Connectedness stage. Now I feel really at home here, and well it will be tough to leave. But hey, c'est la vie :D

I hope that having experienced it once, if/when I start to feel like this again in Korea - it will be a lot easier knowing that the feeling will pass.

Part 2
1) 'I really want to know where I am going in Korea'
2) 'Be calm, wait, you will be happy wherever you go, so what's the rush'

'I really want to know where I am going in Korea'

'Be calm, wait, you will be happy wherever you go, so what's the rush'

This month people have started to find out where they have been placed. So far, only people that applied for Seoul have found and everyone else is waiting 'patiently'. I think the main reason I want to know is just so that I can start researching, where I will be so that I can start imagining myself being there so that I can take my mind off of being sad about leaving Switzerland.

Part 3
1) 'I cannot wait to stop Au-pairing'
2) 'I'm going to miss the kids/ what the hell am I going to do in my last month'

'I'm going to miss the kids/ what the hell am I going to do in my last month'

'I cannot wait to stop Au-pairing'

I have had an interview to work as an English teacher in a Summer Camp - but  I think that I might have been lacking some of the qualities they were looking for 'German speaking/ability to use a car in Switzerland' - but we will see. And as much as I will miss the kids, I really think that one year of being an AuPair is enough for me - maybe if I was getting more money/less working hours then I might feel differently, but who knows. I am definitely ready for the next challenge in my life.

Part 4
1) 'Ew. I'm going to be living alone.'

'YES. I'm going to be living alone.'

2) 'YES. I'm going to be living alone.'

'Ew. I'm going to be living alone.'

So yeah, I am torn on the idea - I think the biggest part of me is really happy to be living alone. Having friends round whenever I like, being able to wear what I want when hungover/tired and just generally having my independence back. And I've managed to kill 3 spiders all by myself in the last three months - so I am much more prepared than this time last year.
But, what if I get lonely, or have a nightmare. If I feel like this, remind me of the times that the kids would play piano at 8am on a weekend........

Part 5
1) 'I'm going to miss my friends'
2) 'You will make new friends, and the people who are worth staying in your life will be the ones that make the contact - it's not like I died....'

'I'm going to miss my friends'

'You will make new friends, and the people who are worth staying in your life will be the ones that make the contact - it's not like I died....'

Not being able to just jump on a plane home like I can here, makes me realise how I am going into this pretty much all alone. But...... I made friends here pretty easily... we have a little community going on through  Skype/Facebook so I feel like I know some of the people in Korea already.... and not forgetting that I ended up meeting someone who is going to Korea at my Jubilee party. CRAZYYYY.
And I know that it's often difficult to catch up with people whilst they are away, and it's going to be even harder with difficult time zones. But I believe that the people that you are truly friends with then you will find a way to stay in touch / when you next see them it's like nothing has changed.

Part 6
1) 'I'm going to be all alone for Christmas and my birthday.....'
2) ....... I don't have a counter argument for that one.

 'I'm going to be all alone for Christmas and my birthday.....'

So Christmas is a time for being with 'loved ones' whether that be friends, family..... you favourite bar (Jingle Berry at revs <3 ) and well, I'm going to be in a foreign country - with no family, and new friends.
Obviously I will make the most of it, maybe take a vacation with some new friends or invite people over..... but without an oven creamy leeks and roast parsnips could be quite difficult to make.

So please think of me and send me some love this Christmas time so that I'm not left crying into my Kimchi... ;) haha.... I'm joking...... kind of.

 Part 7
1) 'I'm going to have moneyyyyy!
2) Major contrast to this year. Let's go SHOPPING.

Major contrast to this year. Let's go SHOPPING.

'I'm going to have moneyyyyy!

Part 8
1) 'I can buy my own food.......'

'I can buy my own food.......'

Yes, who would have thought that I would ever get excited about the thought of food shopping. I will probably be the only person to gain weight after moving to South Korea. Most people lose weight from eating a lot of vegetables. But yeah, it will probably be more that what I eat now. Well, minus the swiss chocolate haha!


In conclusion I am super excited about moving to South Korea and just have a few little things on my mind, pretty much the same ones that I had before moving here. It always helps me to write things down to stop them swishing around in my head! But if things ever get tough then I just need to remember the quote from one of my favourite Disney Films 'Hocus Pocus'
Max- I miss all my friends, I wanna go home!
Dani - Well this is your home now, so deal with it.















In other words, don't focus on any bad things, they will pass - life is good so ENJOY IT